It's all me: what to do

It's all me: what to do: what to do... I've been all over the place lately, I want to work, I want to stay home, I want to get married. I want a man!! HELP!!! OMG!!...So Bill is really pissed off at me, what did I do, I have no clue. It's probably something I said, or wrote. But whatever. I have no tack. I wrote that over a year ago. I need to move on. I really do.My head is frigging killing me. I've started looking for a job again. This time in Carlsbad. They have a new insurance company , I do well in insurance companies. I fit in. People don't ostracize me. Treat me like a piece of garbage. I really just want to go to a place that gives me insurance, so that I can get treated for my headaches, and that I can finally move out of this house. I would love to be able to move to Boston, and maybe get to go to school.

what to do

what to do... I've been all over the place lately, I want to work, I want to stay home, I want to get married. I want a man!!  HELP!!! OMG!!! Well, it's Christmastime - stirs up all sorts of feelings of family. I should have done more with my life. It's really not my fault that I got sick, 37 brain surgeries screwed up my plans, but it's time to move on. I want to write. I have an IQ in the triple digits and I take menial jobs, it's ridiculous. I actually think that the movie good will hunting is based on me, bu they don't know it. I would love to go to Harvard, but i could never afford it. At least not yet, someday maybe. We'll see. Merry Christmas friends. I have a great bunch of friends. I love my best friend,  we'll see.