what to do

what to do... I've been all over the place lately, I want to work, I want to stay home, I want to get married. I want a man!!  HELP!!! OMG!!! Well, it's Christmastime - stirs up all sorts of feelings of family. I should have done more with my life. It's really not my fault that I got sick, 37 brain surgeries screwed up my plans, but it's time to move on. I want to write. I have an IQ in the triple digits and I take menial jobs, it's ridiculous. I actually think that the movie good will hunting is based on me, bu they don't know it. I would love to go to Harvard, but i could never afford it. At least not yet, someday maybe. We'll see. Merry Christmas friends. I have a great bunch of friends. I love my best friend,  we'll see.