Back in 1980...Yes I remember Dallas

Back in 1980, i remember a show called Dallas, I was addicted to it, every Friday night my family would gather around the tv and catch up on the business of the Ewings and the Barnes. This was way before the Sopranos. This was the Oil business. Texas, baby. And the man was J. R. Ewing. It was really entertaining.Let me go on with my story, The nation caught on with the drama of Dallas and it became the "it" show, and before too long everyone in the country was talking about it. It became the "watercooler" topic of the week. I was in I think 11th grade at the time, we had just moved back from Massachusetts, I know exactly where I was living I'm not going to put the address, because someone is pretending to be me, and I am protecting myself, with some of these little gems. Anyway, I got back to high school and naturally, I didn't fit in, I had known most of these people from jr. high, and elementary school, but I was having really serious headaches and just wanted to stay home from school. I went to the school nurse, who just like in the city I lived in in MA, told me about the Boy who cried Wolf. And I said send me home, or I'll leave anyway. I went to the doctor, he gave me a shot for the headache, by the time I got home I was throwing up and I was losing consciousness. I guess they took me back the doctor the next morning because I was screaming with the pain, my brother and sister thought I was faking to get out of school. Needless to say, I wasn't. I was rushed to the closest hospital, and they thought meningitis,   brain tumor, started CT scans, I was there, they ran tests, but this was a tiny hospital, and they were limited to what they could do. I was transfered to Scripps and that's when the real work up began. I had been out of it for almost 3 days. They put in temporary drain in my head, and I had surgery right in the ER. I regained consciousness, and the first thing I asked the nurse was, "Did I miss the show Dallas???"

It's all me: what to do

It's all me: what to do: what to do... I've been all over the place lately, I want to work, I want to stay home, I want to get married. I want a man!! HELP!!! OMG!!...So Bill is really pissed off at me, what did I do, I have no clue. It's probably something I said, or wrote. But whatever. I have no tack. I wrote that over a year ago. I need to move on. I really do.My head is frigging killing me. I've started looking for a job again. This time in Carlsbad. They have a new insurance company , I do well in insurance companies. I fit in. People don't ostracize me. Treat me like a piece of garbage. I really just want to go to a place that gives me insurance, so that I can get treated for my headaches, and that I can finally move out of this house. I would love to be able to move to Boston, and maybe get to go to school.

what to do

what to do... I've been all over the place lately, I want to work, I want to stay home, I want to get married. I want a man!!  HELP!!! OMG!!! Well, it's Christmastime - stirs up all sorts of feelings of family. I should have done more with my life. It's really not my fault that I got sick, 37 brain surgeries screwed up my plans, but it's time to move on. I want to write. I have an IQ in the triple digits and I take menial jobs, it's ridiculous. I actually think that the movie good will hunting is based on me, bu they don't know it. I would love to go to Harvard, but i could never afford it. At least not yet, someday maybe. We'll see. Merry Christmas friends. I have a great bunch of friends. I love my best friend,  we'll see.